Defining Moments

Ever get the feeling sometimes that things arent as they seem? Happens to me all the time and it is getting more frequent! I live life on the go alot of the time, especially here lately! Work has been exceptionally difficult for a variety of reasons and on top of that trying to battle a sinus infection! We say it all the time to people we are close to slow down and take your time, rest! Things we all need to do but in doing so it means we might have the opportunity to focus on things we might not want to focus on, ourselves! Ugh, who wants to do that, right? I mean if I am on the go and I am too busy to think about me then I dont have to deal with my pressing needs, so I will make myself busy!

Now this can be a good exercise as well it doesnt have to be a negative thing, but when it becomes unbalanced and in it neglecting your needs becomes your focus, you can really be taken for a loop! You will always be looking for an escape, daydreaming at work or lack of focus in just about everything because deep down in you you know that something isnt right and something needs to change and that defines what a defining moment is! That realization that something needs to change that conclusion you reach in your mind that allows you to see through the thoughts and be able to refocus ond get yourself moving in the right direction!

Thats me! But if your like me when life gets too busy and all I see is more of the same and I wrap myself in it and completely tune out my needs, I am way off balance and I suffer for it greatly! Everything suffers because I refuse to want to change! It happens, something in me just shuts off and I become robotic! If your mind is like mine it can be a dangerous place! I know it is hard to believe but I can be a very negative and hard person to be around! I dont know about you but I am in need of serious change! I can see it, dont know what it is, dont know how to say it, dont even know how to express it but I am in need! Thank God when I am weak and I feel like I cant or dont want to go another step, that GOd cares and God is there to help me through my mess! It has taken me along time to realize that, God does care! He does, He absolutely does! God cares! And when I discovered that, it was a defining moment!